Had a bit of an 'up and down' week. Mostly down.
Whilst looking for a place of her own, a friend has moved into our flat. She's paying a little towards rent and utilities and some of that is going into the baby fund but I'm getting frustrated with the changes that are happening because she's around. My folic acid supplement - with it's unmistakeable pregnant woman on the label - is hidden in a cupboard instead of next to the kettle (my first stop of the morning) and I'm taking it at random hours of the day, when she wont walk in - like I'm carrying on some illicit activity. The baby conversations have reduced drastically, as well. At the start of the week, I was finding it difficult to handle the increasing evidence of a co-worker's pregnancy, and not being able to come home and talk about it the way I wanted to sometimes because J was in the next room was frustrating. I've been looking through blog archives of happy-ending pregnancies, trying to add some positivity to this situation and hopefully pick up some ttc stress relief tips (quite a few out there, btw. Such amazing, positive women)
My colleague miscarried (24 hours before news reached us of our team manager and his wife having their first baby) so emotions are running a little high at work and at home at the moment. Between that and another colleague's injury, there's only been the two of us to cover duty manager shifts in the evenings. In the last week, I've been covering a lot of late evening shifts at work. Naturally, the store chooses to pile it on this week - from dangerous stairwells with no lighting, to produce delivery arriving twenty minutes before closing on a day when there's no available night-fill crew and I have to lock down completely. My caffeine intake has been higher this week than even when I was studying at uni. 250 mg a day may not sound like much to most people, but in my terms this is a binge.
And the cherry on the cake? A works morning shifts and studies three days a week, so I've seen her for less than an hour each day. I'm really missing her.
